Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Post-It Notes

Some things never change...including the way we can become our most sophomoric selves through the form of post-it notes left between roommates.

DS: Turn off lights, TV, etc. before leaving! P.S. I vommed on your hallway rug so I threw it away : )

GP: Do not leave ANY dirty dishes in the sink! It's really not that difficult.

DS: FYI, we're out of toilet paper.

GP: I'm not. I just keep mine locked up in my room. P.S. Are you going to replace that rug, or what?

DS: When I asked if you could turn the lights off before leaving, that didn't mean take every fucking lightbulb in the apartment.

GP: I'm going really green. I left you a candle on the table. Hope you can find in in the dark.

DS: Nice of you to leave matches.

GP: Don't park in my space again. P.S. The matches are in the kitchen drawer.

DS: There was no street parking, sorry. xoxo.

GP: I've taken all of the dishes out of the cabinets because you clearly have no idea how to do dishes. There's paper plates in the bottom drawer.

DS: I thought you were going green...

GP: I'm more focused on water conservation than tree. Although you're the one I should ask, because you seem to have a way of needing no water to do dishes. Oh wait, you don't do them.

DS: I just have my dog lick them and put them back in the cabinets for you.

GP: Well at least you take care of her a little since I always have to take her out. P.S. I vommed on her, so I took her to the pound. Not really, just awaiting my new rug.

DS: I take my dog out.

GP: No, she goes on the bathroom rug which is why I've taken that too. P.S. How's the toilet paper situation working out for you?

DS: I don't use any. Thought I'd save those trees you are wasting on paper plates.

GP: You're fucking disgusting. P.S. I've taken the pots and pans as well.

DS: I threw away your tupperware because it was molding in the fridge.

GP: See, some people wash it when that happens. I'll teach you some time if you'd like.

DS: Fuck you. P.S. I drink my milk straight out the the carton.

GP: No worries, I drink your milk straight out of the carton too. : )

Thursday, November 5, 2009

To New Beginnings...

I've always felt that blogging was a sort of self-indulgent, ego-centric practice. But I love to write. My problem is that when I try to write for personal pleasure, I end up writing for an imaginary audience, so why not just become self-indulgent?

I will begin with an exercise entitled, "Writing Off the Page," which I learned from my Creative Writing teacher to whom I owe my deepest and most heartfelt appreciation. She gave me the permission to write--from my soul. This is how it works, I open a book of poetry, point to one line and copy it without reading the rest of the poem, and time myself, not stopping for ten minutes.

"one of those white summer days"
-From "Portrait of a Lady" by William Carlos Williams
was the day that she lost herself completely without even knowing it. It was the day the bees flew around her face and she began to swat them away, scream in terror. Before that day, she had been a happy child, easy-going and free. She had never minded their buzz, for she knew they wanted sweet nectar and not her terror. But on that clear white summer day, for some reason, she lost that faith in the bees and instead began to scream at their attentiveness to her afternoon snack. Maybe it was just age, the normal loss of innocence which follows the carelessness of childhood, maybe it was the fact that she became like all adults do, greedy, and didn't want the bees corrupting what was hers. Maybe she became aware that there were those out there who wanted to do others harm, but for whatever reason, she lost herself in terror and agitation of the buzzing invaders. From that day on, Maybelle lived with a fear of protecting what was hers and fear of the Other. No longer could she converse with the rabbits in her backyard because with the loss of herself, she also lost her imagination and it wouldn't be until her affair with an artist while she was in her late thirties that she would even realize what she was missing. From that white summer day on, she tried to fit into every box which was presented to her as "right," until one day, and Italian artist swept her off her feet and she was okay with it. She was enthralled by his use of colors and textures, his deep voice, and poetic language. And while she worked on destroying everything which she had ever worked for in life, what she failed to realize was that all she was looking for was that little artist in herself which didn't mind the bees and could converse with bunnies.